Dark basements and plays

And again, last night, I dreamed of dark basements, and people who “played” with me and pushed me into it eventually, and closing the door in the end and switched off the lights… so I sat there in total darkness in this spooky dark basement, which was full of dirt and wide and big…

We were doing some game, don’t know what exactly, and I came from the basement several times after getting something out of the basement, but in the end a girl just locked the door behind me and I was stuck in there. I was so frightened.

I wonder why these dreams are coming, where I am locked in somewhere and where I am frightened and scared and alone… and in the end mostly running away somehow or in a crazy hunt and looking desperately for an exit or an escape… and then it struck me today, reading my dreams of the last three years, that I did not have a clue what they meant but it slowly comes to my mind that they are all related, telling me a story that must have happened earlier, and I can’t lay it to rest, because it must have been so frightening, and so brutal… or at least it was a brutal game, but I wasn’t up for it or not used to it or at least not cut out for it. Maybe it is called “fair game”…

But I don’t want to believe this. I never did anything wrong… I rather even have something like a crush on  a person maybe related to this. And that hurts…

Whatever this might be, it hurt me in my soul and I still struggle to decipher my dreams. Only, I don’t know what I do when I find out. I rather not want to know. I think….

And I even saw him in the cards, but interpreted it wrongly, so I could not see it was him. So, eventually, everything went wrong from there… because I could not read the cards in the beginning of the year properly. It was an otter, who is wearing a pearl of power in his forehead, and it is related to water… and it was also related to helping others and playfulness. So, that all fits in.

But my heart is open to him and somehow, it gets wider every day, I can’t help it. I know how stupid this must sound. But something is there which I can’t find out, but it just won’t leave me. It is this kind of familiarity to him. Ach, I can’t explain it.

Yesterday, there was a woman in my street, taking pictures of the alley. Which is odd, since this happens actually never. I know that, since more or less always the same people are here, it is not so lively here…. The week before that, a neighbor across the street had a fight with a woman and it looked as if this woman was sent away from my neighbor, in an angry gesture, obviously she just did want to stand there on the pavement, in front of their house. The day before that, it was the same with some younger fellow, but there wasn’t a fight.  Or something like that. It just seemed very odd to me.  And when I went out to do some shopping, I saw a weird couple in a car and was like, this is how it always looks like in the youtube videos I’ve seen about this subject. Weird. They drove away after I had clocked them. Or I spotted them. Well… it is going on, obviously. But, this is what I waited for. Just come on, if the game is on,  I take it. I am also very playful at times.  🙂

But maybe, it will bore people to death anyway. Lol. Since there is nothing to get out of it except total boredom. Be my guest…

But it is not worth to hurt loving and caring people, especially when there are no grounds for this at all. They are just hurting themselves with that. Their souls will take it with them for the rest of all coming lifes. Very painful, I must say.

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the world over?– really?

someone please explain this expression to me, I like it, because it sounds nice, but I don’t know what it means…

I think, I will be quiet for a while, it’s been enough politics here. I hate to row with presidents over the internet. And I hate to row in general. I hate to be hateful and I just want freedom and peace. I am not so sure though, if we are going into a peaceful decade… all this rattling one’s saber, it is ridiculous. Stop it for god’s sake…

And I am not so stupid, I can hear and count to one, that is, up to ten at least. At least I can read the cable. I got it, you won’t apologize either, but I won’t even less…

So where is this going? Some people really think, they can have everything, just everything, but that is a mistake. It is not true, only false illusion. But a false illusion should be true then, and no fake. Which is probably a good thing.

Although, I really like to play.ERTHBNCE But this “game” came into a very stupid stage, with too much confusion out there. Some president elect must finally get into being “professional”, or how is he going to present himself to the people in the future?

And probably one has no idea, who he is talking to. Not to a journalist, and not to a “hacker”, that is for sure… So what do you say about that? schlange_3

And I don’t expect anyone to understand this post, or the last one or the one before. The Game is called: the secret voices that don’t count and all, having a secret conversation over the internet.? Truly?  But it’s a stupid game… I normally don’t game on the internet, nor in real life. I am just me, a stupid woman with no career, so relax. -.-  But I don’t expect you to understand that either, although there might be some  smart “intelligence”.  *g*

Yes, I probably still don’t know how the digital new world works, and how conversation over the internet can get into a wildfire. Sorry for that.

So go for it, claim the world for your own, with lots of aggression, and with lots of violence, claim back your stupid leadership of the world, if you even can, today we got a special performance on CNN, was great to see that, and I was in time putting on the TV to see how someone the president “picked” into his “crew” got “rejected”, great performance indeed. They tried to hide it by throwing out the person that “rejected”, but I think there were enough people who noticed, sorry, but you failed and didn’t make it, the disturbance was successful.. I saw it too.  :-p       And THIS wasn’t fake news, just true…

No, I don’t really apologize what that is concerned.

I am done.   tn_2 Because I have better things to do, and you have too. That is, when you don’t want my dreams come true. (Big orange stones falling from an orange sky and all, and the people hiding in the underground from the big companies and presidents, helping themselves, because electricity and everything else broke down…. due to a meteor or a  world war or whatever it might be… I was true on the refugee crisis, seeing everything, on 911, and on some other things. But if you want all that, go ahead…)AnrolledDices7

At this point I must stop, and apologize. So I hope, this will be the end to this. Last shot indeed… I got the clue… Would have never thought it would have ever been taken seriously. Come on!