… and my religion is…

Well, and this is what happens, when “someone” becomes your “religion”.

It is so overwhelming in the end.  I cried yesterday, because I found out so many things I had already seen and I did not know. In 2002, I began to write a story, well about “someone”, and I went on writing over the years and I thought it was total fiction, also about me, and about him an his passion (his religion I think because it can’t be anything else, or these people who were around him and me ), but I did not know then, that it was about “him”, or about a religion. You know. I wasn’t aware who and what that was I was writing about. It was just for fun… and because I wanted to be a writer.  Writing by seeing into the future which is not written by then is like, the feeling to an extend where nothing makes sense… but actually, I thought nothing of it, I thought everything was as normal, I blanked out completely on what was not so obvious.

Yesterday I read my story again after all these years (which I luckily did not throw away as I had planned) and many details are as far as I know true, and are  fitting in.      It was clairvoyance, what else?  And then it shook me and I had to cry.       It is not for anyone to read of course, it is not finished or  good or anything, but it shows the many things which happened and are happening in the last three, four years and ongoing I think, to me it is shocking but as well wonderful. It is like a bond which was invisible and unknown to me.

It is either telepathy or something else, which I don’t know yet…. and it makes me wonder, nobody can say, that clairvoyance doesn’t exist. Because it does.

He must have such a strong mind. To me, that is mind-blowing.

 

 

 

Nobody reads me…

Well… nobody reads me, but I know that already. Most people misunderstand me, obviously. My writing is too depressive, so people are appalled by me and think bad of me. I know that as well, for sure. Well, somebody told me. That there is sometimes humor, nobody notices. I feel invisible anyway, but that goes to show, that people talk about the parallel societies, which breed in some extend terrorism, so there is a general suspicion about people like me, who are not involved in any society whatsoever. Does not matter if you are born in the country you live in or not… it is more evident, that people hurt your feelings as a not fitting in person. Yes, nobody speaks to me, that is the normal way… a world that gets darker ever day, while people tend to compare themselves to me, while they don’t even have the same problems like the so called aliens, or in Europe, foreigners, or even mixed races. In my childhood, people treated me the same way the would treat other children, thinking, the background was not even interesting, but it is. It is appalling to forget the background of a person, and tell them, well, you simply have something like a adjustment disorder, while it is all about being not accepted as a part of the “normal” society… Expecting, that a foreign child or a foreign person has the same things to manage as the “normal” residents, is extraordinarily stupid. But, societies breed their own terrorism with not educating their own stupid children about acceptance, love, understanding and integration. I am not sorry for them.

Well, writing does not help, as always. We are doomed anyway. At least the mixed races people and all the aliens and foreigners. Maybe, I should have made a disclaimer, that all this was only for the ones with the same background as me.  Sadly enough, that people need disclaimers all the time, that they use not to think on their own, which results in being insulted (at least they feel that way), which is just stupid. 159154

Disclaimer: sometimes you can stumble about some sarcasm in my blog, mixed with some humble humor. Beware. 9810bb805478d59b4580b258bbed59c1

The lying President, where is Batman, Spiderman and them all?

This is all a nightmare. To me, the things in USA seem to be like a comic strip, not real at all. More like unreal. May this not be for long…

I wish there was a real Spiderman or Batman. We need them now.

Thanks to all those protesters, and you have my inner understanding. Sadly I can’t be with you there…

but you are definitely right. But stay safe… please.

It breaks my heart as I am writing this. This can’t for real take 4 long years… honestly.

This world annoys me so much, with this system that is so full of lies. Their rich and safe world is blocked and hidden,  only  a safe world for their own spouse and kids and families, not for those, who they just sworn to give peace to or who they sworn to protect, that is the American people, All of them.

Liar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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