everything just feels ice cold
nothing is right
all is all wrong
my life is in a mess
and I don’t want it
if I am not wanted
which I am not
by no one
my feet are a lump of ice
my heart does not feel much different
my hands feel colder than before
I fear the day that brings the clear
although already clear about everything, is not everybody yet
nothing will be, nothing ever was
I am all alone
I was in that moment and will be for all eternity
I resent “them”
whoever they are
I resent “it”
if it is at all
I won’t ever want it
my world is a snow cold perpetual ice landscape now
I shudder with cold
the roads are all closed
nowhere to go
grey in grey world
why oh why
they are all with another – always have been or just found a new
I wish them all the luck and warmth
while my cold is all encompassing
and hereby I am all gone
all that, I should have known much earlier…
in a world full of cold entities
who cares about what I just said
out of this icy atmosphere…
I really can’t breathe
I freeze.
I have my own personal apocalypse…
what a luxury.